first of all, there is very little actual good about goodbyes.
from recent experience, they suck and each one drains my soul of all good and happy thoughts...
thus, it would seem more correct to call them: byegoods.
so, the thing about leaving for a year is that I can admit "a year" is probably NOT that long or big-of-a-deal in retrospect, however, I think we can all agree (me, myself, and I), that a year is an "extended period of time"...
and when leaving for a known or unknown- extended period of time, saying byegood to all the people you care about seems appropriate- what I didn't know about saying byegood on these terms, is that you are FORCED to consider how much everyone you are essentially- leaving - deeply and truly mean to you.
i personally don't consider myself a very stressed or easily upset-able person (with monthly exceptions)... but when forced to process such a huge amount emotional attachment to people, some to a degree of extremeness that i honestly didn't even realize was there in the first place, well it's exhausting.
and after so many weeks of this intense anguish and mixed emotions about my present and nearing future, I stared into the mirror tonight and eventually didn't even recognize who was looking back at me. I felt so unattached to myself that it seemed like someone else was combing their fingers through my hair...
weird, and a bit disturbing.
from recent experience, they suck and each one drains my soul of all good and happy thoughts...
thus, it would seem more correct to call them: byegoods.
so, the thing about leaving for a year is that I can admit "a year" is probably NOT that long or big-of-a-deal in retrospect, however, I think we can all agree (me, myself, and I), that a year is an "extended period of time"...
and when leaving for a known or unknown- extended period of time, saying byegood to all the people you care about seems appropriate- what I didn't know about saying byegood on these terms, is that you are FORCED to consider how much everyone you are essentially- leaving - deeply and truly mean to you.
i personally don't consider myself a very stressed or easily upset-able person (with monthly exceptions)... but when forced to process such a huge amount emotional attachment to people, some to a degree of extremeness that i honestly didn't even realize was there in the first place, well it's exhausting.
and after so many weeks of this intense anguish and mixed emotions about my present and nearing future, I stared into the mirror tonight and eventually didn't even recognize who was looking back at me. I felt so unattached to myself that it seemed like someone else was combing their fingers through my hair...
weird, and a bit disturbing.
=let's get this girl in the air.
fingers tightly crossed (not sure whose) that tomorrow will be FUN, FINALLY.
i dearly need to laugh, for fear of fully succumbing to insanity.
some of my friends have told me to stop doing acid, but that's probably very unrelated to this post.
ps. just a note to all of my grammar freak friends out there, for "stylistic reasons" (yeah right, lazy pinkies) when writing, i avoid capital letters where they belong and i overuse -'s and ...'s ...as well as many other grammatical flaws-- STYLE!--
just... go with it--
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